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The Grieving Woman and the Christmas Story

December 22, 2017 by Leanne Friesen

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I remember that Christmas when what I wanted most in the whole world was to be having a baby.

We had been hoping to have children for a while, but after some tests we were waiting for an appointment with fertility specialists.  It was November when we got the news that conceiving on our own might not be possible, and I was devastated.  As Christmas got closer, the last thing I wanted to hear about was pregnancy and babies – and here we were entering a season where a story involving those exact things was all around me.

Every pregnant belly made me jealous.
Every baby in a stroller made my heart ache.
And every mention of the miracle of the baby born at Christmas made me wonder why I couldn’t have a miracle for me.

In the end, we were one of those couples that had to cancel the appointment at the fertility clinic when we found out we were having a child.  We only knew the pain of longing for children for a short time, so I can’t pretend to understand the experience of women who have been on a longer, harder journey than me.

However, that season of heartache did teach me something: Christmas can be a painful time for women who long to hold their children and are unable to do so.  This includes women who have wanted children and have not been able to conceive, those who have miscarried, and those who have outlived the children they loved.

When we read stories in the Bible, I always encourage people to look for where they see themselves in the story. But where does a woman who has had to come to terms with infertility find herself when she reads the story of Elizabeth conceiving in her old age?  Where does a woman who has miscarried see herself as she reads of a joyous birth, something she never got to experience with her baby?  Where does the grieving mother, facing the first Christmas since her child has died, find herself as she sings of “mother and child” and aches to hold her own child again?

When you feel so far from Elizabeth, from Mary, and from the joyful mothers in the Christmas story, where do you belong?  Is there a part of the story that can feel like yours? I have been reflecting on this question often this Christmas. I can’t shake the desire to share this message for those who need to hear it: broken-hearted women ARE in the story. We just don’t talk about them as much.

Many of us know the famous part of the Christmas story that says some “wise men” came to find Jesus. Because they were looking for a king, they logically talked to the current king, Herod, about where to find the new king that had been born. Herod’s scholars directed them to Bethlehem, where it was said the Messiah would be born, and Herod asked them to come back after they had found the child.  His intention, however, wasn’t to worship Jesus, but to kill him.  The wise men decided not to return to Herod, and when Herod realized he had been tricked, he wanted to do all he could to prevent another king from taking his place.

He ordered that all boys in Bethlehem, aged two and under, be killed.  By the time this happened, Mary and Joseph had already taken Jesus from Bethlehem, so his plan failed.  Instead, it led to the murder of completely innocent babies – babies who were loved and wanted and cherished and held and longed for by mothers who had to let them go.  The Bible describes the devastation by saying:  A voice is heard in Ramah, weeping and great mourning, Rachel weeping for children and refusing to be comforted, because they are no more.

How great the wailing must have been.

Each time I read this story, it takes my breath away. I can hardly handle the thought of opening my door to find a soldier there to kill my child.  I can’t imagine the anguish. I can’t fathom the pain in those mamas’ hearts.

I know why we don’t dwell on this story at Christmas, but sometimes I think maybe it deserves a little more airtime.  Sometimes I think there are a lot of us who need to remember that there is sadness in the Christmas story too – that there were mothers who had their dreams shattered alongside those who had their dreams come true. The grieving women are part of the Christmas story – the ones with the empty arms and the broken hearts.

Yes, the Christmas story is ultimately one of joy. But it never demands that those in pain be forgotten. It doesn’t sugar coat, cover up, or forget heartbreak.  We always stop the readings before we get to the awful part on Christmas Eve, but it strikes me that Scripture never left it out. God didn’t say: “This is too sad.  It’ll bring people down.  Let’s not mention it.”  It isn’t justified or explained away. It is simply acknowledged and named and allowed to be.

I know we forget this in churches, especially at Christmas time.  We don’t always want to make space for the sad stuff, and this can make those who carry sadness feel forgotten. For that, I am sorry, and it is why I want to say it again: if you are grieving, hurting, longing, dream-shattered – you belong in the story, too.  Alongside Mary and Elizabeth are the mothers who mourned. There’s space for your loss there, and there is space for you.

When you’re ready, and when you’re able, I know you’ll see the hope in the story as well. The Christmas story shows us that the impossible can become possible through the power of God.  Your impossible may be believing that there can be joy in your life again. Have hope that Christ’s coming can make even this true. One day.

But, this Christmas, if it’s not the day, and you are more broken than joyful – you don’t have to wait to feel you belong in the story.  You’re already here. It is, after all, for your sorrows that Christ came.

This post was originally published at https://leannefriesen.com/

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has served as Lead Pastor of Mount Hamilton Baptist Church in Ontario, Canada for the last 12 years. She and her husband (also an ordained minister) are raising two children, ages 9 and 6, who are super useful for sermon and blog illustrations – and also delightful human beings.
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About Leanne Friesen

has served as Lead Pastor of Mount Hamilton Baptist Church in Ontario, Canada for the last 12 years. She and her husband (also an ordained minister) are raising two children, ages 9 and 6, who are super useful for sermon and blog illustrations – and also delightful human beings.

Comments

  1. Katie says

    December 24, 2017 at 8:26 pm

    I want to add another group of people, of which I am a member, who find this season hard- women who aren’t able to have a child not because of infertility, but because they have no husband with whom to have a child. Christmas for me brings up feelings of loneliness as well as longing for a child.

    • Leanne Friesen says

      December 28, 2017 at 8:44 am

      Very true! Thanks for reminding me of that.

  2. Dalaina says

    December 24, 2017 at 7:51 pm

    I just love this. Thanks for giving me something to chew on this Christmas.

  3. Ann says

    December 24, 2017 at 5:54 am

    I am a mother who had fertility issues, but now I am a mother of a grown son who wants little to do with. I ache to have held my grand daughters when they were infants, something stolen from me by my DIL. In order to not cause trouble for them, I have had to hide my pain and act like nothing has hurt me. I guess I said something about 9 yrs ago that DIL didn’t like, and she has been punishing me ever since, and my son has done nothing to improve things.

    It isn’t just the infertile or bereaved mothers that find Christmas painful. Every time we hear that Christmas is “all about family,” we die a little inside. I am so sick of people who complain about all the work they have to do because family is coming for a visit. I have to think of Mary, who must have understood that she was going to lose Jesus. I think of God who sent HIs Son for just this. It doesn’t make the pain go away, but I know that at least SOMEONE understands it.

    • Leanne Friesen says

      December 28, 2017 at 8:46 am

      I’m so sorry you’ve had to go through this. Christmas can be lonely for so many, and we forget that too often.

  4. Emilie says

    December 23, 2017 at 1:55 pm

    This was me from Christmas 2010, a couple months following the miscarriage of my first pregnancy, until I was finally 8 months pregnant at Christmas 2014. Every Christmas in those four awful years of longing for a child felt like a smack in the face. Singing “Silent Night” on Christmas Eve with candles left me weeping. Every year since, when I’ve held my son inside me or in my arms, I still weep. It will take many more Christmases to fully heal from the pain and disappointment of those four. Thank you for writing this for other women (and their partners!) who are going through this bizarre juxtaposition of Christmas this year.

    • Leanne Friesen says

      December 24, 2017 at 5:22 am

      I’m so glad this was meaningful to you. I can only imagine the complicated feelings this time brings for you.

  5. vilbert vallance says

    December 22, 2017 at 8:15 pm

    Absolutely practical and insightful too wish many pastors will see this angle
    God bless
    Have a blessed Christmas and new year
    vilbert
    india

  6. JoMae Spoelhof says

    December 22, 2017 at 12:20 pm

    Thanks for this meaningful reminder, Leanne. This Christmas comes amid mourning for me and your words are so true. Halfway through reading it, these words came to me and landed in this little poem:

    Christmas

    We sing the joy of Christmas
    we sing with happy hearts
    While others echo somber stories
    of worlds ripped apart in pain

    The other side of Christmas
    where promise goes unfilled
    where children starve, parents die
    and life is bleak as winter rain

    Even that first Christmas era
    when the world was blessed with Christ
    so many parents grieved sore loss
    of murdered baby boys

    Please be present with us, Jesus
    also amid life’s deepest pain so we
    can heal; move through the darkness
    renewed to find your joy again

    JoMae
    12/22/17

    Just thought i’d share and wish you and your family a Blessed Christmas. -JoMae…finding my way through to renewal.

    • Gail Wallace says

      December 22, 2017 at 5:26 pm

      This is just beautiful, JoMae! Thank you for sharing it here. Yes, Jesus, be present! Blessed Christmas.

      • JoMae Spoelhof says

        December 22, 2017 at 8:06 pm

        Thanks, Gail. And for all you do with JUNIA. Blessings.

    • Leanne Friesen says

      December 24, 2017 at 5:23 am

      Thank you for sharing! It’s a beautiful poem.

  7. Barbara Brenner says

    December 22, 2017 at 9:37 am

    Thinking also of Anna, married for 7 years and then a widow until she was 84. Luke 2:36-38

  8. Ellen Ayres says

    December 22, 2017 at 8:22 am

    Richard swanson’s wonderful PROVOKING THE GOSPEL OF MATTHEW makes the excellent point that Herod’s murderous order would certainly hav resulted in the accompanying Murfreesboro of mother’s, fathers, grandparents,even siblings as family tried to defend the children. Those babies and their families were Jesus ‘ kin— and in Matthew Mary and Joseph are from Bethlehem— Nazareth is their new resettlement after Egypt. Swanson makes a case for using this story as a lens to read Matthew— and to see Jesus.

  9. Tim says

    December 22, 2017 at 8:19 am

    This season has never been one of ease, even from the beginning. Thanks for your own telling your story of finding the hope Jesus brings to people in so many ways. Christmas is as much for the deeply hurting as for the deliriously happy.

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